I sat down at the piano today because I was stuck. Emotionally constipated. I needed to put a sound to how I was feeling, because no words were coming. I doodled in and out of some of the Aurora Crossing songs (coming soon!), and then started playing Add to the Beauty by Sara Groves.
We come with beautiful secrets
We come with purposes written on our hearts, written on our souls
We come to every new morning with possibilities only we can hold, only we can hold
Redemption comes in strange places, small spaces, calling out the best of who we are:
And I want to add to the beauty, to tell a better story
I want to shine with the light that’s burning up inside. (Complete lyrics are here.)
You know what’s weird? Pain is part of the light that is burning up inside of me. A deep desire to figure out what the it means to be human. Here are my thoughts on that, so far:
- Everyone has pain–no one is exempt.
- Everyone is insecure (especially the people who look like they have it all together)
- We are ALL deeply afraid of being rejected and alone. We will do whatever it takes to avoid this possibility.
- Our natural human tendency is to posture, put on mask, and create an image to hide our inadequacies, weaknesses, and anything that might cause us to be “disqualified” from love. This results in most of us feeling deeply alone.
- The only way to actually BE LOVED is to RISK BEING UNLOVED by displaying the “unacceptable” parts of ourselves, and letting them be seen, known, and cherished by others.
- When we show up vulnerably, it creates openings for other people to do the same, and we suddenly realize we’re not alone in our pain.
So pain can be a light inside of us–something beautiful, redemptive, that creates an opening for authentic relationship. When offered in honesty and love, our failures and weaknesses are an invitation for others to connect with us in our most tender places. Vulnerability is the only path I know that can heal us. Our pain is a gift that can add to the beauty, if we are willing to share it.
What stops you from showing up authentically? What would you have to let go of, in order to “show up” authentically?